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He reached out to touch her cheeks, but she pulled away from him.

  “Pay it no mind. It’s simply a fight with my sister. ”

  “Why would you fight with her?” Bastian followed her the few steps away that she’d gone, and he stood right behind her. “I hope it isn’t over me. ”

  “No, it’s not. ” She turned back to face him. “But how long can we go sneaking around? She’ll catch us eventually, and we’ll have hell to pay. ”

  “She won’t catch me,” he promised with a grin. “I won’t let her. ”

  “Bastian. This is serious,” Thea said.

  “I’m always serious. ” He attempted to look grave and put his arms around Thea. She rested her hand on his bare chest, the smooth muscles warm beneath her hands, and she stared up at him.

  “What if I don’t want to sneak around anymore? What if I want to have you all to myself?” Thea asked him.

  “I would tell you that now is not the time,” Bastian said. “Your sister is the ruler of this place, and her vengeance isn’t something I want to cross. At least not now. ”

  “Then when?” Thea asked.

  “When it is the right time. ”

  “Your tongue is as good at dancing around the truth as it is at singing,” Thea said.

  He laughed warmly. “That’s not the only thing my tongue is good for. ”

  He tried to kiss her then, but she pushed him back and pulled free from his arms, taking several steps away from him again.

  “She means to break the curse,” Thea said.

  “Why ever would she want to do that?” Bastian stood with his hands on his hips, baffled by the prospect. “I thought she loved the power and the magic and torturing mere mortals. ”

  “She does,” Thea agreed. “But she also claims to love you, and she says that you can’t love her because of the curse. ”

  Bastian shook his head. “It’s not the curse that prevents me from loving her. ”

  “What is it, then?” Thea took a step closer to him, unable to hide the hopefulness in her voice.

  “It’s that she’s horrible. She’s a monster, and a murderer, and detests everything. ”

  “Then why are you carrying on with her?” Thea asked. “If you know what a beast she truly is. ”

  “I needed a place to stay,” he replied simply. “I hadn’t planned on being here this long. Or getting involved with you. I just wanted a warm bed for a few nights. ”

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  “So you are staying for me?” Thea asked, as he stepped close to her.

  “You are one of the reasons I am staying,” he admitted, smiling again.

  He wrapped his arms around her waist and lifted her easily from the floor. With one smooth move, he tossed her lightly on the bed. Then he climbed onto it. With an arm on either side of her, he held himself up, then leaned down to kiss her passionately on the mouth.

  Thea allowed him to kiss her for a moment, causing heat to burn all the way through her, then she put her hand on his chest and pushed him back.

  “Do you love me?”

  His smile faltered. “‘Love’ is not a word that I will easily throw around. ”

  “Bastian. Please. ” She stared up at him, searching his blue eyes. “Every time I lay with you, I am risking my life. She will certainly kill us both if she finds us together. ”

  “So I am risking my life the same as you. If that’s not a show of affection, I don’t know what is. ”

  “Will you not say it? Will you not declare your love to me?”

  “No. ” Bastian’s voice was heavy with regret. “I cannot. ”

  “Why?” Thea swallowed back her tears, trying not to let him see how badly that hurt her. “You said you were capable. ”

  “You are sweeter, fairer, and in all ways more delectable than your sister. ” He brushed the red hair back from her forehead. “But you share equally in her bloodlust. ”

  “Because I am a monster, that I must feed? You refuse to love me?” Thea asked.

  “Come, Thea. We only have a short time until we both must be ready for the day. Can’t we put these matters to bed?”

  She wanted to argue more, and maybe she should have. But around Bastian, her will was weak. Within moments he was kissing her again, and all her worries were lost in his embrace.

  TWENTY-TWO

  Visitation

  The car ride to Briar Ridge had never felt so long. The air-conditioning was out in Brian’s F-150, and even though the windows were open, that only seemed to succeed in blowing more hot air into the truck. Gemma sat in the middle, wedged between her dad and Harper, and none of them said anything.

  The only sound was the classic rock station, and Brian unironically sang along with “I’m on Fire” by Springsteen. But that was all.

  Harper had told Gemma earlier in the week that Brian wanted to come along on their usual Saturday visit, but neither of them completely understood why. On one hand, Gemma knew she should be excited. She’d been all but begging her dad to see Nathalie since Christmas two years ago. That was the last time Brian had had any contact with their mom, not that he’d had that much before then.

  When Harper learned how to drive and could make the trip to visit Nathalie on her own, that was when Brian had officially checked out. But in the years leading up to that, he’d had minimal interaction with her. It was little more than a Hello, how are you? when he picked up the girls or dropped them off to visit.

  So it had Gemma a little freaked out that he actually wanted to do something with Nathalie, especially without any prodding from Gemma or Harper.

  Brian pulled into the driveway of Nathalie’s group home, and all her worries about surviving the sirens’ curse were changed to simply surviving this afternoon.

  “Did you call and let them know I was coming with you today?” Brian asked as he turned off the truck.

  “No,” Harper said. She leaned forward, her gray eyes worried. “Should I have?”

  Brian sat for a minute. “No, I’m sure it’ll be fine. ”

  “We should go in,” Gemma suggested, since it seemed like her dad would be content to swelter in the truck all afternoon.

  “Yeah, let’s go in. ” He nodded but didn’t move.

  He was tan from working outside so much, but his skin was ashen today. His blue eyes were wide and frantic, scanning the gauges of the truck like they would hold some clue about how to deal with this situation.

  This was the most scared that Gemma had ever seen him look. That wasn’t saying much, since he rarely showed any fear, but he was obviously terrified.

  “Dad?” Harper had climbed out of the truck, but she leaned against the door, watching him. “Are you sure you want to do this?”

  “No, yeah. ” He nodded again and licked his lips. “I need to do this. I need to see her. ”

  Gemma reached over and took Brian’s hand, his huge leathery one consuming hers, and she squeezed it gently.

  “You can do this, Dad,” Gemma told him.

  He smiled at her, but he still appeared sick. “You’re right. Let’s do this. ”

  Brian finally opened the truck door and got out. Gemma climbed out more slowly after him. Her decision to wear shorts had been a bad one. Her legs were stuck to the plastic interior, and she had to carefully peel herself off before she got out.

  Harper and Brian were waiting for her, and Gemma went to knock on the door, letting the two of them stay a few steps behind her. In all the times she’d visited her mom before, she’d never felt so unnerved. This could all easily turn into a horrible disaster.

  Before the door even opened, Gemma could hear Nathalie yelling on the other side, “It’s for me! I got it!”

  Nathalie threw open the door, already smiling exuberantly, and shouted, “My girls!”

  The hardest thing about seeing Nathalie was that while the accident left her mentally impaired, she didn’t look any different. She was tall
and elegant, appearing more like a model than a mother, let alone someone with brain damage. Her eyes were the same shade of golden honey as Gemma’s, and her smile was radiant.

  The only signs were subtle, like the Harry Potter T-shirt she wore, or the bright pink streak she had running down her long brown hair, or the temporary Lisa Frank tattoos of puppies and kittens she had up and down her arm.

  But to someone like Brian, who hadn’t seen her in years, it had to be a shock to see her looking exactly as he remembered her. It would be easier to accept that she’d become a different person if she looked different, but she didn’t.

  “Hi, Mom,” Gemma said.

  “Oh, you look so beautiful today. ” Nathalie threw her arms around her, hugging her fiercely. Then she noticed Harper and reached out to squeeze her arm. “And so do you. ”

  “Hey, Mom,” Harper said. It was a few octaves higher than she usually spoke, so Gemma knew she was freaking out a little bit.

  “We brought someone with us today,” Gemma said once Nathalie had finally released her. She stepped to the side so her mom could get a better look at Brian. “Do you recognize him?”

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  “Hello, Nathalie. ” He raised one hand, waving awkwardly at her.

  “Is this … is this your boyfriend?” she asked. Then she leaned down to Gemma and lowered her voice. “Honey, he’s too old for you. ”

  “No, Mom, this is Dad,” Gemma tried to explain.

  “Brian,” Harper clarified. “Mine and Gemma’s dad. He’s your husband. ”

  “What?” Nathalie straightened up and shook her head. “No, I’m not married. ”

  “Yeah, Mom, you are,” Harper said gently.

  “But he…” Nathalie stared at Brian, looking confused and a bit disgusted. “He’s so old. ”

  “I’m actually only six months older than you,” Brian said, doing his best to keep his voice light.

  She crossed her arms over her chest. “When is my birthday, then, smarty pants?”

  “October sixth, 1973,” Brian replied instantly.

  “Lucky guess,” Nathalie said, but by her expression, Gemma wasn’t sure if Nathalie knew if that was correct. It was, but there was a chance that she didn’t remember her birthday anymore. “What’s my middle name?”

  “Anne,” Brian said, then pointed to Gemma. “The same as Gemma’s. ”

  “How long have we been married, then?” Nathalie asked, but her disbelief was melting. Her expression had softened into something more curious.

  “It was, um, twenty years this past April. ” He lowered his eyes for a second, then looked back up at her.

  “Twenty years?” Nathalie asked.

  “This is really him,” Gemma said, hoping to help convince her mother.

  “It’s me, Nat,” Brian said simply.

  “Nat?” Her eyes flashed with painful recognition, and her arms dropped to her sides. “You used to call me that. Nobody calls me that anymore. ”

  “I’m sorry. I don’t have to call you that,” Brian said.

  “No, you should. ” She reached out and grabbed his hand. “Come on. Come in. We need to talk. ”

  She led him through the house, introducing him to the staff as her husband, and Brian would just smile politely. The staff cleared out her roommates so they could have some privacy. Nathalie sat down at the dining room table, scooting her chair close to his, and stared at him with utter fascination.

  Gemma and Harper weren’t sure what they should do in this situation, so they just sat down across the table and watched their parents talk.

  “How did we meet?” Nathalie asked.

  He’d put his hand on the table, and she was almost petting it. Gemma had never seen anything like it. It was as if she wanted to hold his hand, but she was too frantic to keep it still, so she kept running her hands over it.

  “We met in elementary school,” Brian said. “But we didn’t start dating until high school. ”

  “We were high school sweethearts?” Nathalie asked.

  He nodded. “We were, yeah. ”

  “You took me to the prom?”

  “Yeah, I did. ”

  “I knew it. ” She squealed and laughed. “What color was my dress? How did I look?”

  “It was kind of a dark blue. You were beautiful. ” He smiled at the memory. “You always were. You still are. ”

  “Did you propose to me?” Nathalie asked.

  “I did,” he said. “It wasn’t very romantic. I was too nervous and I kept stumbling. You actually guessed before I had a chance to get the words out, but you instantly said yes. ”

  She twisted the gold wedding band that he still wore on his finger, and he let her. “Where’s my ring?”

  “Um, the girls have it,” Brian said. “Gemma does, actually. ”

  “I keep it in a jewelry box on my dresser,” Gemma said, and Nathalie glanced over at her for a second before returning her attention back to Brian.

  “Why don’t I wear it?” Nathalie asked.

  “We wanted to keep it safe,” he explained.

  “Do you have any pictures of our wedding?”

  “I do. ” He nodded. “Not with me, but I have many. ”

  “And after we got married, we had the girls?” Nathalie looked over at them again.

  “Yes, we did. They’re both our daughters. ” Brian motioned in their direction, but he wouldn’t look at them, probably afraid that they might see the pain in his eyes.

  Nathalie was staring at Harper and Gemma like she’d never seen them before, scrutinizing them. “They’re beautiful. ”

  “Yeah, they are,” Brian agreed with a small smile.

  “Harper looks like you. ” Nathalie tilted her head. “She has your nose and your eyes, but hers are grayer. Yours are more blue. ”

  “I think she’s prettier, too,” Brian said.

  Harper laughed nervously. “Thanks, Dad. ”

  “You visit me a lot,” Nathalie said to the girls. “I see you. I remember you. ” She pointed to Gemma. “You swim, and … and”—she pointed at Harper—“you’re going to college soon?”

  “Yep, that’s right,” Harper said.

  “I used to swim. But I’m acting in a play now. ” Gemma leaned forward on the table. “You used to be in plays. Do you remember that?”

  “No. ” Nathalie shook her head. “Should I?”

  “No. ” Gemma forced a smile at her. “It’s okay, Mom. ”

  Nathalie faced Brian again. She stopped petting his hand and just held it as she stared at him. “You don’t visit me. Do you?”

  “No, I don’t. ” His voice was thick. “I’m sorry. ”

  “Why not?” Nathalie asked, but there wasn’t a hint of accusation in her voice.

  “You … you don’t remember me very much anymore. ” Brian chose his words carefully. “It’s hard for me to see you and not be able to talk to you like my wife, like the mother of my children. I want to talk to you about our life together, and I can’t. ” He swallowed hard. “You don’t remember it. ”

  “Why don’t I remember you?” Nathalie asked.

  “I don’t know. ” He shook his head. “You remembered me more, after the accident, when I used to see you a lot. So it’s my fault. I should’ve stayed with you longer. ”

  “I wish I remembered you,” she said quietly. “You seem very kind, and you have nice eyes. ” She reached up, her fingers touching the crow’s-feet at the corner of his eye.

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  “Thank you,” he said.

  “Were we in love?” Nathalie asked when she dropped her hand.

  “Yes. ” Brian let out a shaky breath. “We were very much in love. ” He pursed his lips. “And I’m sorry I let you down. ”

  “How did you let me down?”

  “I should’ve visited you more. I should’ve been here for you. ”

  “If I loved you the wa
y you say I did, I’d want you to be happy,” Nathalie said. “And if seeing me makes you sad, then maybe it’s better that you didn’t. ”

  She’d been playing with his hand, but he turned it so he was holding her hand. Tears were standing in his eyes, and he tried to sniff them back.

  “I miss you, Nat. ”

  “I wish I could say I missed you, too,” Nathalie admitted. “But I don’t. I don’t remember you. ”

  “I love you. I will always love you,” Brian said. “But I can’t do this anymore. ”

  As he stood up, he bent down and kissed Nathalie on the forehead. He lingered there for a moment, breathing her in, and then he turned and walked out of the room.

  “Dad?” Harper got up and went after him.

  “Did I do something wrong?” Nathalie asked and looked back at Gemma.

  “No, Mom, you didn’t do anything wrong. ” She got up and went around the table, sitting in her dad’s spot so she could be closer to Nathalie. “You did really good today. ”

  “I’ve upset him, though. ” She stared at Gemma. “I’ve upset you, too. ”

  “No, I’m not upset. ” Gemma wiped at her own eyes. She wasn’t crying, but she could feel the tears forming. “It’s not your fault. ”

  “Gemma. ” Nathalie brushed a hair back from Gemma’s face and tucked it behind her ear. “You look really pretty today. ”

  “Thanks, Mom. ” Gemma laughed and sniffled at the same time. “I wish you were here again. ”

  “What do you mean?” Nathalie asked. “I am here. ”

  “No, really here. I know you’re still in there, buried somewhere down…” Gemma trailed off as she realized something.

  She glanced around, making sure that she and Nathalie were completely alone. Then she took her mom’s hand in hers and leaned in close to her, keeping her voice low.

  “I want to try something, Mom,” Gemma said. “I’m going to sing to you, and I want you to … just react however feels natural, okay?”

  “Okay. ” Nathalie had lowered her voice because Gemma had, and she nodded quickly.

  “Mom, I know you’re in there,” Gemma sang softly, barely above a whisper. Her voice came out in a clear perfect melody, and Nathalie’s expression began to relax. “I want you to remember all the things you forgot. Everything about Harper and Dad and me. I want you to come back. ”

  “I…” Nathalie’s brow furrowed. “I…” She grimaced and touched her forehead.

  “Mom, are you okay?” Gemma reached out, touching her arm. “What’s going on? Do you remember anything?”

  “It hurts!” She put her hands on the side of her head, and her nose began to bleed.

  “Oh, no, Mom, I’m so sorry,” Gemma said. “Look at me, Mom. Please. Just look up. ”

  “It hurts,” Nathalie repeated, but she finally looked at Gemma with tears welling in her eyes.

  “Forget my song,” Gemma sang. “Forget what I said. ”

  “I can’t,” Nathalie said, almost pleading with her. “I can’t remember what you want me to. I can’t be who you want me to be. I’m sorry. ” Then she cried out, hugging her head. “Make it stop! Make the pain stop!”

  “Your head doesn’t hurt anymore,” Gemma sang hurriedly before the staff came running in. “You’ll never feel a headache again. ”

  And just like that, it stopped. Nathalie looked up at her with red-rimmed eyes and wiped at her nose with the back of her hand.